Disappointment can mess with you or make you. Decide.

 I’ve decided to share something real with you. At the end of last year, I experienced my first workshop blow out.

No-one attended. I thought there might have been a technical hitch so, I was checking emails and the phone too. My computer was also playing up big time. But nope. All I could hear was crickets.

Now, the ego and self serving in me would usually get in her feelings, go grab some cake and wallow in pity.

But, I surprised myself and decided to record it anyway. Someone might have joined late and seeing a blank space would not have made the best impression. I may record it again as the the lighting on me wasn’t great but I am proud of myself for keeping going.

I thought I had too many slides but it turns out, the recording took just under an hour. I have decided to share the replay imperfect and all. Delivering the information was the important thing and I know that I did that.

This pressure to be the best has always existed, to be perfect’. Letting go of perfectionism has been harder than I ever thought. Coming from a Fashion Background doesn’t help either as, that is always been about appearance. Perfectionism for me, is a form of Procrastination. It is a challenge to get past myself and focus on what is actually needed, not what it looks like.

Reacting to the disappointment of the workshop in this way is, a form of growth and I’m giving myself two slaps on my chest. It marks a point where the levelling up is happening. I would say this about myself repeatedly but this time, I really feel it.

It has helped that this year I did finally find my circles. Communities that embrace members with their flaws and all who they are. Witnessing people (especially those who look like me) share their vulnerabilities without judgement or ‘advice that wasn’t asked for’ allowed me to release and feel safe to express mine.

I debated whether to share here on LinkedIn but, my Business is called The Realness in Business for a reason! Business has never been one-way,bringing twists & turns all the time. We need to do better on sharing the realities. It is not just about hitting 6 & 7-figure targets and ‘fix you’ strategies. We all know things do not always work the way we want so, lets just say that!